Dude, I'm sorry you're going through some rough times, get some help. Maybe this world isn't best for you right now until you get more stable. Either way move on. You didn't like BK, fair enough, find somewhere else that would take you, and try to have some fun.
As it is now, you will be forgotten other than that one guy who flipped out all the time. All the good you may have done will be erased and replaced with that one guy...
Move on keks, get some help.