Last night, I did something unjustifiable. In response to a forum post made by the leaders of GATO about a treaty they made with VT, I said many things that I shouldn't have. Jokes are jokes, but I crossed the line and then kept going for another mile. The things that I said were offensive, disrespectful and rude.
In this letter, I wish only to apologize. I’m not going to sit here and try to sell you all some tale about how I wasn’t thinking or about how I meant something different when I made my comment. I’m not going to try and tell you all why you shouldn’t be angry at me for what I said because that anger is very much deserved. All I want to do is to try to right my wrongs.
Firstly, I want to apologize to GATO and VT. Neither of you did anything to deserve the things that I chose to say to you. I should have been much nicer to you and encouraged you, instead of trying to ruin your experience for my amusement. I should’ve thought about your feelings before I started typing out my message. I was inconsiderate and disdainful. By choosing to say what I did, I stole the attention away from you and put it all on myself. For all of those things, I am very sorry.
Secondly, I want to apologize to the other members of my alliance, Ignis Aternum. My actions have tarnished our alliance’s name for many months to come. You deserve to have a second-in-command who tries to help those around us, rather than one who makes selfish attempts to strike them down. The things that I chose to say and do last night are a perfect example of how you should not behave. I hope to be a better friend, leader and representative of our ideals in the future.
Thirdly, I would like to apologize to our protectorate, Error 404. Through your association with Ignis Aternum, I have tarnished your name as well. You deserve to have allies who try to help you advance your goals, rather than who harm your ability to achieve those goals due to their selfishness. I hope that I can be a much better ally in the future.
Finally, I want to apologize to the PnW community. I offended many of you by choosing to say the things that I did and for that, I am truly sorry. Many of you immediately stood up to me to make sure I knew that what I did was wrong. For that, I thank you. I was a bully and I deserved to be told off. In the future, I hope to be much nicer and more considerate of others, no matter the ranking of their nation or their alliance. Ultimately, it is just a game and those things don’t matter. We are all humans and we all deserve to be treated as such. The fact that we’re behind usernames and screens does not give anyone the right to spew vulgarities and rudeness.
An apology is the first part of righting my wrongs, but taking action is the second. Upon posting this letter, I will be entering vacation mode for the next two weeks to give myself time to reflect upon my choices. I hope to determine if there was a deeper reason for why I chose to do and say the things that I did so that I correct it and avoid hurting more people in the future. When I return, I hope to be a much better friend and community member to all of you.